14th
What a Valentine…
So it’s that day that most people hate, some people love, and other’s just continue to get through every year. Most years I have a good time weather I have one or not because I feel you need to just love the day and everything in it. (good or bad)
This year I have a very special valentine and I am excited, as I sit here at work, to find out what will happen in the later hours of tonight. It’s slowly been creeping up on me, but because of him he’s brought out some of my heart. I know that I had built this adamantium wall around it just so that I wouldn’t get attached and therefore I wouldn’t get hurt, but I was wrong and its not a situation where he’s stealing my heart away…its one of those things where I’m actually voluntarily giving it to him. It’s kind of making me scared too…
Lately I have also been thinking about my mom. I just don’t know what to do…she has this new guy and I kind of don’t like it but I’m also trying to not care. It is ultimately her decision, but I kind of don’t want anything to do with it and at the same time I feel like I’m losing my mom. I also feel like I lost her a very long time ago, but maybe I’m just afraid of also losing her in a physical sense. *Sigh*…the things that have my mind wondering all the time.
At the same time my dad…I really don’t know about his love life. I think I’m the only one he loves at this point. That’s cool with me though. My brother and my dad are one in the same…they both love me, but I can’t always figure them out.
My biggest love is food though!!! by the way I’m really hungry right now and I can’t wait till dinner tonight. Happy Valentine’s Day Everybody!!!!
